When my mother was buying lunch today, I felt like vomitting at the sight of roasted ducks hanging from the hook, displayed at the window of the stall. Suddenly, I wondered, how could anyone bring to put that in their mouth?

Aren't we being barbaric by devouring something that was once of living flesh and blood?

Now think about it. What if that was You on the hook, roasted, mercilessly sliced and served to an army of aliens?

I never said I was going to convert to vegetarianism, but that was just gross. Besides, you could see the oil oozing out onto the chopping board.

DON'T THEY STRIKE AN UNCANNY RESEMBLANCE OF EACH OTHER?
Rufus Wainwright and Jade Puget.
I swear I could feel my heart in my mouth when I saw the picture of Rufus Wainwright in a Livejournal community. Even the sideburns look suspiciously alike. LOL.

"This Love Affair" by Rufus Wainwright

I don't know what I'm doing
I don't know what I'm saying
I don't know why I'm watching all these white people dancing

I don't know where I'm going
But I do know that I'm walking
Where?
I don't know
Just away from this love affair

I can't say that I'm cruisin'
Not that I don't like cruisin'
Just that I'm bruisin from you

I can't say that I'm waltzin'
Not that I don't like waltzing
Would rather be waltzin' with you

So I guess that I'm going
I guess that I am walking
Where?
I don't know
Just away from this love affair

I'd listened to a few songs by Rufus Wainwright out of curiousity. His voice is awesome, I mean it. Think pop-opera. Woah man, I'm still shaken by the resemblence and the story of Rufus Wainwright as written in Wikipedia. Someone had stated that a similar artist in terms of music. It is none other than Mika. But LOL, FAR FROM IT, PLEASE!

I always thought Freddie Mercury and Mika looked alike. No?

Right now, I feel like shit. School's been pretty good actually, apart from E-Maths and recesses.
I hate recesses so much. I feel so out of place.
Every night's a horror because I can't sleep. Or even if I get to, I actually "know" that I'm asleep and have a tendency of waking up at two or three in the morning. I really really hate it when I can't sleep. I mean, I don't mean to be not paying attention in classes, but I can't sleep. It's not that I don't want to, I just can't. I'm this close to falling apart to pieces.
I was wrong about all of you.
I'm subconciously building a wall around some people. Not on purpose, nor do I have the power to prevent it from being built. I feel threatened. It feels like something's going to be happen and something(s) I hold so dear to my heart would be taken away. I fear loss. Everyone goes through loss, they say, but I fear it still. Okay, I admit, I'm scared, all right? Of what, I don't know, really. I just know something's going on (or is going to happen, at least) and it won't be great.
Blame it on female intuition.
These voices in my head don't stop. Everytime when all is quiet, things come back to disturb me. I see flashbacks, I occasionally see scenes from childhood and rare deja vu. It amazes some people how I can stand loud music. You know what? I'm not even listening to the lyrics. I don't even know what they're singing. I just like it loud. They drown the voices in my head to the bottom of the ocean. Though a temporary relief, yet more useful than a panadol.

I suppose that sounded "emo" to you people. Stop it with the stereotypes. Labels and stereotypes are different things. A label doesn't involve hate nor despise but stereotypes invoke and promote that kind of mindset. Can't people have their own problems without other people judging them for that moment on what they feel?

I'm goddamn sick of whatever's happening to mainstream radio. For widening your music world and saving you from this utterly depressive blogpost, I took this from Vicky's blog (which I haven't visited in ages).

#01 Mint Car by the Cure
#02 Wish by Nine Inch Nails
#03 Antidepressants Are Depressing by Curl Up and Die
#04 Nothing by Unloco
#05 Saved By the Bell by the Bee Gees
#06 Camisado by Panic! At the Disco
#07 My Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne
#08 I Fought the Law by the Clash
#09 Cleanin' Out My Closet by Eminem
#10 The Sun Bleeds Red by Stutterfly
#11 Totalimmortal by Offspring (originally by AFI)
#12 Everything Perfect On the Wrong Day by Sky Eats Airplane
#13 Key Lime Pie by AFI
#14 Of Masques And Martyrs by I Am Ghost
#15 Naïve Orleans by Anberlin
#16 Burn the Flames by Wednesday 13
#17 Forsaken by Within Temptation
#18 The Back of Your Mouth by the Used
#19 1234567 by F.I.R.
#20 Force of the Shore by Epica
#21 The Forgotten Goddess by Echoes of Eternity
#22 The Hanging Garden by the Cure
#23 The Hunter by Gatsbys American Dream
#24 Walking With A Ghost by Tegan and Sara
#25 Smoking Umbrellas by Failure
#26 Going Under by the String Quartet Tribute (originally by Evanescence)
#27 Hang 'Em High by My Chemical Romance
#28 Time After Time by Downtown Singapore (originally by Cyndi Lauper)
#29 Life I Left Behind by Aiden
#30 Wish Resign by Circa Survive
#31 Decembers by Hawthorne Heights
#32 Failure of A Friend by Evergreen Terrace
#33 The Risk by LoveHateHero
#34 Simply by Pillar
#35 Don't You Know Who I Think I Am by Fall Out Boy
#36 Lips of Deceit by Avenged Sevenfold
#37 Heaven's A Lie by Lacuna Coil
#38 Wouldn't It Be Nice by the Beach Boys
#39 Circus by Tristania
#40 Save Me Sorrow by Bullets and Octane

Questions:
Which song do you prefer, #01 [Mint Car by the Cure] or #40? [Save Me Sorrow by Bullets and Octane]
#01!

Have you ever listened to #12 on repeat? [Everything Perfect On the Wrong Day by Sky Eats Airplane]
No.

What album is #26 from? [Going Under by the String Quartet Tribute]
It's from The String Quartet Tribute to Evanescence.

What do you think about the band who did #15? [Naïve Orleans by Anberlin]
Sellout.

Is #19 one of your favourite songs? [1234567 by F.I.R.]
DEFINITELY NOT.

What does #38 remind you of? [Wouldn't It Be Nice by the Beach Boys]
Adam Sandler in 50 First Dates.

Does #20 have better music or lyrics? [Force of the Shore by Epica]
Lyrics, I guess.


Do any of your friends like #03? [Antidepressants Are Depressing by Curl Up and Die]
No one I know has heard of this song ._.

Is #33 from a movie soundtrack? [The Risk by LoveHateHero]
Nope.

Is #18 overplayed on the radio? [The Back of Your Mouth by the Used]
No way! Well, at least not in Singapore.

What does #21 remind you of? [The Forgotten Goddess by Echoes of Eternity]
A bus ride.

Which song do you prefer, #05 [Saved By the Bell by the Bee Gees] or #22[The Hanging Garden by the Cure]?
#22!

What album is #17 from? [Forsaken by Within Temptation]
The Silent Force

When did you first hear #07? [My Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne]
Hmm.. MTV. LOL.

What genre is #08? [I Fought the Law by the Clash]
80s Punk Rock. Hahahaha.

Do any of your friends like #14? [Of Masques And Martyrs by I Am Ghost]
Ruici! :D

What colour does #04 remind you of? [Nothing by Unloco]
Blue and green.

Have you ever blasted #11 on the stereo? [Totalimmortal by Offspring]
The cover Offspring had done? NO FUCKING WAY. The original AFI version? HELL YEAH.

What genre is #37? [Heaven's A Lie by Lacuna Coil]
Gothic-metal/Nu-metal

What is your favourite lyric from #30? [Wish Resign by Circa Survive]
"Nothing you love lasts too long."

Can you play #13 on an instrument? [Key Lime Pie by AFI]
Omg, no! Hahaha.

What is your favourite lyric from #23? [The Hunter by Gatsbys American Dream]
"If there's a heaven in the sky, I don't know why they'd ever let me in.
I'm sure that there's a hell and there's room for all of us."

Would you recommend #24 to your friends? [Walking With A Ghost by Tegan and Sara]
Yeah.

Is #02 a good song to dance to? [Wish by Nine Inch Nails]
LOL, HOW?

Do you ever hear #16 on the radio? [Burn the Flames by Wednesday 13]
Hahaha, nah-uh!

Is #32 more of a night time or day time song? [Failure of A Friend by Evergreen Terrace]
Timeless.

Does #36 have any special meaning to you? [Lips of Deceit by Avenged Sevenfold]
Nope.

Do any of your friends like #31? [Decembers by Hawthorne Heights]
I know Kai likes this song! :D

Is #25 a slow or fast song? [Smoking Umbrellas by Failure]
Sort of fast but not very fast..?

Is #35 a happy or sad song? [Don't You Know Who I Think I Am by Fall Out Boy]
It's more like.. satirical.

What is one of your favourite lyrics from #09? [Cleanin' Out My Closet by Eminem]
"I hope you fuckin' burn in hell for this shit!"

Is #34 better to listen to alone or with friends? [Simply by Pillar]
Alone..?

Name 3 other songs by the artist who did #11. [Totalimmortal by Offspring]
Shitzzzzz. I don't know other Offspring songs. How about I name you AFI ones since it's originally by them. Hehs.
- ..But Home Is Nowhere
- Rolling Balls
- 37mm

Do you know all the words to #6? [Camisado by Panic! At the Disco]
Well, I know the chorus!

Does #28 have better music or lyrics? [Time After Time by Downtown Singapore]
Omg, isn't this the same question Vicky had gotten for the song? I'd say the music.

What album is #10 from? [The Sun Bleeds Red by Stutterfly]
And We Are Bled Of Colour

Yeah, I thought the quiz was amusing. Oh wells.

P.S. You know, you all should stop using the word "emo" on yourselves and me. I mean, what's up with replacing "unhappy", "upset", "depressed" with "emo". They're not even synonyms to being with.

I woke up with red eyes that didn't hurt, but itched when rubbed. Plastering chrysanthemum flower buds to my eyes, I left the house ten minutes later than I'd wanted to.

Ballet was alright, I guess. Only Heather, Karina & I turned up. The first hour was wasted because Ms Ong didn't recognise us in the changing room & we didn't pick up our phones when she called. Karina didn't pick up because there was no reception. I didn't pick up because.. I didn't even know that it rang. As for Heather, well..

So Ms Ong finally looked into the changing room. She look surprised, and asked if we had been there all along. Obviously, yes. Then she told us about calling on our phones. She said that it was said that Heather's phone was switched off and Karina's phoneline was busy. As for me, the call got diverted back home, which was received by my mother, who Ms Ong said that she sounded panicky on the phone when she realised that Ms Ong has not seen us. Hahahaha.

So ballet ate up one-half hours of dance time. After dance, I met up with Deborah at the bus-stop and headed off to Chinatown to meet up with Elaine. We ate hawker food. Hahaha. It was pretty funny when we were approached by this guy for a two-dollar donation. "My mother says pretty girls are always very helpful!" We were so grossed out. We chipped in coins though, which nicely added up to two-dollars (or more). As he walked away, I commented "that is one of the lousiest pick-up lines I've ever heard".

Well, after that, we took the MRT to Clarke Quay, where Deborah took so much joy experimenting with the automatic soap dispenser. Hahaha. We sat on these block-thingies and watched the bum boats ride along the Singapore River as we waited for the G-Max to thrust people high up in the air. Unfortunately, we didn't have that much patience & went off over to the other bank. We were walking admist a circle of pubs. In the middle, there was this fountain in which Elaine dared me to walk through the parabolas of water. I was pretty dry after attempting two of that, but Elaine looked sort of damp. Hahaha. From there, we walked towards to Coleman Street, where on the way there, we saw Mrs Elaine Lee, whom I think had already recognised us way before I spotted her at the traffic light. She asked if we've prepared for our block tests (oh-so-typical), and asked where we were heading. In actual fact, we were not planning to go anywhere. We were just walking along the streets. She parted with us at some blue building as we went into the Armenian Church. It's been two years since us three have been there. The last time was with 1SY back in 2005 for some Heritage Tour thing. We sat there, looked at tombstones, crucifixes & headless statues. It was so unbelievably quiet, despite the amount of traffic at the main road. From there, we walked to Raffles City, then through City Link Mall & ended up at Suntec, where we shared a mudpie at NYDC. I sort of screwed up my fork. Its prongs were no longer in place by the end of the dessert.

Well, quote Deborah:
"SAVE THE CAKE!"

I finally went for dance, but I didn't dance though. Ianna and a whole bunch of them came late because they had ballet with Ms Ong. After their lesson, Ms Ong walked through the studio, towards the toilet. As she was heading out, she saw me. So she asked "So, how are you feeling now?" I told her I was still coughing. Amusingly, she smiled, cleared her throat (as though mocking my coughing fits) and went out of the studio. Haha. Ianna, Cheryl, and some other people were surveying my earrings (which I had stupidly forgotten to take off) and wallet. Suddenly, Ianna went "Why are you so goth?!" Haha, that surprised me. I've been labelled so much as emo that the word "goth" sounded alien to me.
But in this really weird way, it lit some dark awaiting candle in me.
Well, I found something amongst pieces of my foolscap paper. Candles are always awesome.

Saturday was unimportant. Kyle tried asking me out (No, no, no. Not BGR -.-), but Deborah was at home sleeping & I didn't think Kai was free, on top of that, I don't want to go out alone (what the hell mann). So, I said I couldn't make it, which turned out to be true in the end. Dinner was crap. I spilled lemon squash twice.

Sunday night was spent watching Jump In with my sister on Disney Channel. Stupid as it sounds, I thought it was better than High School Musical. Lol. Well, it got kind of boring in the middle. After that, I watched Dark Oracle on Nickelodeon. It's just upsetting that I'd missed the last few episodes. I seem to have missed out a lot in that last three episodes. Oh wells.

Today, I'm going to miss dance because I'm going to the doctor's. Tell me I am dead, because I will be anyways when I get back to school.

leongyiting -- [noun]: A person of questionable sanity who starts their own cult 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

What will you be doing when the world ends?
	Driving your Hummer while screaming 'Death to the World' in a toll booth
'What will you be doing when the world ends?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Okay, so I found the USB cable, but I'm not going to write much. Cats were everywhere. Even on a potted plant.
This is sick & disgusting. No, not the cat. I meant the cigarette pack.
It's not a farm. It's the market. Chickens caged for slaughter. Sick.
My sister took this at my grandmother's house.
I wonder what it is with her and flowers.
Cameron Highlands on Sunday. Tea leaves. Mountains and mountains of them.
Spot the turkey.
Flowers.. again.
Ditto above.
English Country Garden. LOL. Sorry, that's the title of one of the Darkness' songs. It's the Smokehouse in Cameron Highlands. Looks pretty cool.
Van, this is for you :D I think it was one pot of strawberries. Not sure.
The place where the movie the King & I was shot. I don't know much about the movie. I went right to the top. The staircases had nothing for anyone to hold onto. So if you trip, there goes blood. There was this wine cellar which was ultra creepy because it was all dark & filled with stale air. Eurgh. I went halfway down the stairs into it & ran back up. Well, there are rumours of it being haunted..

And this, was the exact pentagram that I'd mentioned in the post prior to this. My camera had to die before I could take a picture of it. I took this picture from wikipedia. Lol. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pentagram#European_occultism

Well that's about it for now.

This is bad, really bad.

My SIM card decided to play hide-&-gocan't-seek this morning before I left Malaysia. Ms Deans has already placed people into positions for Jumping East of Java and I won't be able to save myself because right now I'm burning up literally with a temperature scorching my skin at 38 degrees celcius. On top of that, there's ballet tomorrow.

I'd love to write an entire post on the five days in Ipoh, but I'm really not in the mood (nor in the right state of mind) to write a proper long post right now. Besides, my USB cable decided to elope with my SIM card, so I can't upload the pictures from the camera (which decided to die on me during th five days) onto the computer.

In short:
Mosquitoes flew far far away from me because I overused the mosquito repellant. I slept with spiderwebs, watched television with a bat, wandered around in an abandoned castle, almost took a picture of a ancient chalk-drawned pentagram (till it cursed my camera battery to run out) and had a lot of meatballs. Actually, those weren't creepy at all. It was quite intriguing on the contrary. I squeezed in a car of eight up to Cameron Highlands on Sunday. The trip down was spent being squashed by my five-year-old cousin who decided to laugh at me when I fell asleep. She's pretty funny for a five-year-old actually.

Well, I think I'll put up the photos when I can finally summon my USB cable back into my presence and concoct something that stops the throbbing of my head and hot vapour conjured from exhalation.

Tonight is the night I go.

I shall not see the light of the computer, lay my fingers on the piano, smell my stinky ballet shoes, shy away from the tights & read English signboards for 5-6 days. When I'll come back, I do not know.

Malaysia, here I come. I am your mosquito feed & murderer. Either I bleed or you will.

Anyways, this morning was a tiresome ballet lesson in which everyone was aching from Jazz classes. It ended about an hour and ten minutes later than scheduled. So in the end, we only had less than 30mins of Dance, which was still Jazz.

When I was at Parkway Parade to meet up with my mother to buy a whole load of sweets (hehs), I bumped into Cheryl (that poor senior who had to suffer having her feet stamped on because I had to jump over her back in the 2005 SCdance concert) and Audrey (another ex-SCgirl from dance).

Kai showed me some Youtube videos when I was online. Emo Rangers. Pretty funny, actually. Their accents distract me, but not enough to realise that they're acting kind of sucks. Hahaha.

Now, for wildness..
THE CURE'S COMING!
THE CURE'S COMING!
THE CURE'S COMING!
THE CURE'S COMING!
THE CURE'S COMING!
The date has been confirmed. It is on 01082007. It's a pretty risky date, considering that End of Year Examinations will be held in September, but oh what the heck. This is the best part : IT'S AT THE SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM. HAHA. I can get home from there and it's one of the rare places where I will not get lost. Tickets start going on sale on 13062007 at 0900. All I need now, is to save up money.

Well, that's great. Now, let me finish up my packing.

I HATE IT WHEN I FORGET THINGS.

Well anyways, up there, is a picture of serena's & my seperate artwork. Haha. Go identify.

ohmygod, i couldnt resist not posting these:
okay, these pictures were taken from here.
i swear it made me melt. those pictures are probably quite old, but heck. his niece is one lucky girl. well, i got th link from some LJ community. besides, i watched PotC1 yesterday on teevee again. hahaha. i've been watching quite a lot of teevee ovr th weekends. now that's something i haven't done since a long time ago.

sorry. this post is going to be quite music/media-related. :D

and here comes SMIFFY :D
well, Smith Puget, really.

i think this band opened for AFI in one of their shows. Smith, being AFI's tour manager (& a crazy skater), maybe that's why they decided to ask smiffy to do th video. LOL.

well, from one Puget brother to another. Jade has done a remix on Marilyn Manson's latest single. MM's new album, Eat Me, Drink Me, due for release tomorrow, features a track titled Heart-Shaped Glasses (When the Heart Guides the Hand) (Inhuman Remix by Jade E Puget). i'm desperately searching across th internet for that song but have so far only found a 30sec preview of that song. i'm not planning to get MM's album. personally, i think that he'd have done better if he kept John5. oh wells, JADE & MM. usually i'd put DxH & MM together, but this amazed me. haha yichieh, i hope you read this. & i hope skylar manages to get hold of that track {crosses fingers}

OKAY, back to teevee. there's this Nickelodeon (yesyes, laugh at me) show that i've been watching over th weekends. it's called Dark Oracle or smthn like that. it creeps the shit out of me yet i like it a lot. lol. it's utterly fictional but it captivates me in this very dark & odd way. lol. it's abt these pair of twins & their characters in some parallel comic-book universe. sounds childish? probably is, but i find it quite cool. lol. and there's this guy practises dark arts in th show. i don't know mann, it's just nice.. in my opinion.

ah, back to DxH&Jade again. fluctuating & flying through topics.
BLAQKAUDIO - NEW VIDEO.
http://www.myspace.com/blaqkaudio

behold, the curse of technology.

\m/ SCHOOL OF ROCK \m/
it was awesome. it did show th element & true spirit of rock. STICK IT UP TO THE MAN! hahaha. now as compared to what th radio categorises as "rock" nowadays, rock is dying on the stereo. th Veronicas, Ashlee Simpson, Simple Plan, Good Charlotte & who-knows-whats aren't sticking it up to da man. it's all diluted & worn out. pop overrules our stereo & is brainwashing kids globally. it's pretty sad, isn't it?

apart from Rock & Roll, we have that entire emo fad thing going on. check this out. now that is what i'm talking about. yesterday, kai showed me a youtube video. it was about guy who named himself "Lars" & it was mocking th whole stereotyped emo thing. it was pretty mean, but yeahh, it was funny as well. like that webpage puts into parallel, boybands vs. emo.

well back to th movie. th drummer was like WOAHHHHHHHHHH. i was swooning like crazy yesterday. my sister & i skipped going out for dinner with my parents just to watch that. sadly, she had to endure having a sister screaming at th teevee when Led Zeppelin. Pink Floyd, Jimi Hendrix, Deep Purple, AC/DC & a few other bands were mentioned. not to mention having to tolerate having a sister squealing at Smoke On the Water & widening her eyes when the drummer played. i mean, he's so young but he plays so well. DAMMIT!

oh digress again. i watched a ten-minute youtube interview with Davey & Jade yesterday. they never fail to impress me. okayyyyy. i'm off swooning. it's been really really long since i last did this.

come to think of it, in three days' time, it'll be exactly a year since Decemberunderground got released. <3